I have been abusing myself for all of my adult life. I am in intensive therapy to reverse the effects of the abuse and to learn how to treat myself.
ABUSE- when something is used for something other than it’s intended purpose
Abuse: I have used my tongue to speak death and destruction to others, sometimes even using it to speak death over my own life and situations.
Purpose: Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples. (Psalm 96:3)
Make known among the nations what he has done, and proclaim that his name is exalted. (Isaiah 12:4)
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. (Matthew 28:19-20)
Abuse: I have used my mind to replay past hurts and disappointments. I’ve used it to devise a plan of retaliation and to justify bad behavior and bad habits.
Purpose: Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2)
We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, (2 Corinthians 10: 5)
Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding. (Proverbs 4:7 KJV)
Abuse: I’ve used my heart to house hate, bitterness. I have placed material things, money, pride, and grudges, in the center of my heart.
Purpose: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. ( Proverbs 3:5)
I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds. (Proverbs 9:1 KJV)
In order to really understand the severity of the abuse, we must begin with the purpose for which I was intended.
What is the purpose of my life? I strongly believe in order to determine my purpose I must look to the One who created me.
According to Ephesians 2:10 (ESV), 10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
I was created for good works.
I have spent most of my life in pursuit of accomplishments, acceptance from people, and financial gain.
Don’t worry though. I am in intensive therapy. I think the type of therapy you seek should be proportionate to the level of the abuse and/or addiction. Well, my abuse, if left unchecked, will result in death. The death of my calling, my impact for the kingdom, my faith, and my ministry.
That’s seems intense to me.
Step 1- Acknowledging the abuse and that I need help controlling it
Step 2- Recognizing God can and will restore me back to my intended purpose
Step 3-Letting go of the past while reflecting on triggers
Step 4-Praying and asking God for forgiveness (accepting the forgiveness He is faithful to give)
Step 5- Learning to live a new life with Christ at the center (attending church regularly, independent bible study, fellow-shipping with like minded people, developing a prayer life)
Step 6- Helping others who are struggling with abuse by serving at church, volunteering in the community, leading a bible study and/or prayer group, inviting people to attend church with you, showing them the love of Christ
It is an intense program. My work will not be finished until the return of our Savior. Take heart, He has sent the Holy Spirit to remain with us and strengthen us every step of the way.
God be with you!